Leaving for good. (archived by NightFall)

[Cross]

First thing, you would have to understand my backstory, why I am leaving. Click HERE to get full picture.

I will start big, TWC and EA SAVED MY LIFE. I met incredible people, the first ones I could call FRIENDS, first ones in my entire life. This clan, this community, when I joined saved my life, showed me that there are things worth living for, encouraged me to be more assertive, to speak freely, to be myself without fearing about acceptance, without fearing what will people say.

I tell people that my health, including mental, is ok, but it's not, really not. I lie, thats my thing, I do not want to tell people just in how bad condition I am. I barely move, I sleep only thanks to pills, my heart is not exploding only thanks to pills, I am able to move a little only thanks to rehab, and I am still taking antidepressants. I am in dark times, yet again. Every few days I have thoughts ... you do not want to know about. And that is the reason I want to leave, I HAVE to leave, for my own freaking good.

I can't stand atmosphere in TWC now, It's toxic and I am getting more and more agitated and upset bcs of this. I do not like how people treat each other, I do not like how people are talking shit about the great guys that saved my freaking life with being awesome and great people. I do not like how MSTs are basically implementing censorship instead of talking to people (oh wait, they can't since they are mostly not around or simply ignoring everything). This is why I have to leave, current TWC is destroying my memory of the clan that saved my life. It's one of the very few things I can grab onto when I am in my darkest thoughts.

For my own good, I am leaving this clan before my sweetest memory is gone forever and yet another great thing from my life will be taken away from me by bullies.

Have a great future, Cross.

[Dominator56]

Wise choice, Cross.

Sad to see you leave but you have necessary reasons to do so.
Thanks for your time in TWC, you were really a core member of Panzerwar, I wish you good luck in whatever you will do in the future and I hope your health will get better soon.
And I hope you will also keep a good memory of this clan, as you said.

Good bye and good luck!

[Godzilla]

Good luck in your life, man, seriously.

[Robbert]

Understandable Cross, u are a great person and I wish u the best in ur recover...
Remember the good things and forget the rest.. Take care m8!!

[Haures]

Good luck irl!

[Brapperoni]

Good luck with everything mate! Not sure if it will help, but I usually tell myself in dark times that when you are at the bottom, the only way to go is up! So keep your head up bro, and life will sooner or later turn around again in your favor!

Take care!

[NightFall]

Sad to have to read this but your personal health goes before any of this. Take care and cya around Cross!

[Impact]

Good luck irl!

[Ludi]

Well, it's an understandable decision.
Of course health comes first and i hope you will get better as soon as possible.
I also had a lot of fun playing and talking with you, you are great person.
Take care and good luck in real life.

[Hruby]

hope u have a great life and take care