An update on my (in)activity #realtalk (archived by $4m4el)

[Antho]

Hi guys, I've been quite inactive for a couple of months already, and I feel like properly explaining why.

As you may have seen, Storch has left. And I think I have been going through a similar process. As you can read in his topic, I said that I've been having a tough time with figuring out what I want to do, who I want to be, and how I want to achieve this.
All of this is quite personal, but I feel like sharing it, as at one point, most of you will probably go through the same process, so let's elaborate.
These things bother me a lot. It's always on my mind, I'm pondering on a daily basis, and I tend to feel bad or guilty whenever I'm doing something that doesn't benefit me in the long run. I'm not depressed or anything though, I feel just fine. I just can't fully ''relax'' playing games anymore, doesn't matter what game. I do know that I don't want to turn into a workaholic, so I try to balance my life with going out with friends, being in the gym, working, and going to/doing stuff for university. This sort of works for me, but I tend to feel like something is missing.
Be it playing guitar or playing games. When I do so, I end up with a shortage of time, as I have other responsibilities as well. I'm pretty much thorn between two evils, and I feel bad when I pick either one of them. So in turn, I try to balance them. It's an annoying vicious cycle. That's probably why I haven't left this community yet. It has crossed my mind multiple times the past year or so. ''When is it time to move on?''

I haven't figured things out yet. What would you guys have me do? Be honest with me. Step down from the supreme position, as I am only active for 2 months or so at a time? Move into more of an advising role? Remain a supreme? Try to move on with my life?

[Vegehan]

Hey Antho, I haven't really seen you online. Mostly because I've just joined. And you were not as active. I'm Vegehan by the way.
Everybody needs to make choices and move on in their life. For some people it goes automatically, for others it means quitting distractions. Enemy Territory is a game, and if you feel it's stopping you or distracting you in what you want or who you want to become. By all means, quit cold turkey. Do what you gotta do. When you have it sorted out. You can always decide to start again or not. Your choice. I'm just sayjin.
Allthough we would prefer you staying, you have to make your own choice. So what ever you have to choose, good luck. And hopefully see you around.

[Chasin]

It's your choice Antho, do what you think that's the best.

[jupe]

you sould do what yoyu feel like. nobody can tell you what to do, but just do what feels best for you. hope we still see you somedays at supreme or not.

[Axel]

Well Veghan said almost all the things i gonna say

Well everyone ave different lives , yep we keep managing but sometimes....we just cant manage ....
Both et and life ya there will be many opinions , saying ya u can manage both ....some saying u cant choose one.
Its just depends on u ....wht u do ......wht u think
Do you think quitting it will help ? If it does then go ahead ....life is priority
If it doesnt well u knw wht to do.

And currectly I think we dont even hv some1 experienced enough .....and samuel will be all alone trying to manage this big server
So just stepping down frm supreme position wont help most probably

It depends on you.Life ? Just dont mix et with it ..its just a game.
And u havent signed a contract or anything

[Blood Berserker]

Heya antho

I cant give you a better advice then the others did.
Its your life and do what you feel like you need to do.

If et takes to much of your time or it makes you feel down cause you have so much work on it. well just make the deceision.

we cant do it for you!

feel free to pm me if needed

[djuki]

He m8.

Hard question. I understand were you are commin form. I have been there myself a couple of times. I quit the clan as highest admin to join an other clan 6 months later. Being a leader (supreme we call it here) is a stressfull job. And you can get fed up with it quite fast. And I am thankfull for what you have done so far. I wouldn't wanna lose you! but you know what they say. No one is irreplaceable. This sounds harsh but is it the truth. If you feel like you need to spend your time on other stuff, please do so. When you feel like you miss the clan life you can always deside to come back. Maybe someone else is Supreme but lvl doesnt matter to be usefull.

I wish you luck m8!

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Btw I do like to add that it gonna be damm hard to find a good replacement for you.